Wow feels like forever since I've had a chance to update this thing. Lately I've made sleep a priority over blogging.

You know how sometimes things aren't going really great but you are happy anyway? Things go wrong; sometimes you are totally overwhelmed. You just want to sleep because thats the only time your mind isn't running at one hundred miles an hour and your dreams are the only place that things are exactly how you want them to be? But at the same time, you just love life. You see just one beautiful thing all week among hundreds of ugly things, but all you can remember is that one beautiful thing? You wake up in the morning and you decide that you are happy you are awake. This is one of those times. I guess that isn't called happiness- maybe its called joy.

I spent four evenings by the sea this week. If you have never had to clean off your glasses from the salty spray, then you have no idea what you are missing. I'm one of those people who sits alone on a bench for hours laughing to myself and watching the sunset. (My parents say I dress like a homeless person so you can just imagine what some people must think!!)  I'm always the last person to leave, even after all the color fades out of the sky. I'm always afraid that if I leave before its completely dark, I'll miss something. 

I take good pictures of the sunset, but not great ones. And its disappointing.

I've never actually let anyone read one of my whole poems before. But I have one that kinda explains how I feel right now. I'm not sure that the poem is very good, and anyone could rip it apart. But I guess thats the only way to find out if its good or not.

Watercolors spilling, staining.
Against the water black.
Captivated, I am unable to look away,
Yet this is my escape.

Face to face with the master painter,
I am asking-
Why is it never as brilliant,
Never as lovely,
In the well-worn photographs?

Black silhouettes
Each with its own golden edges.
Seeming to punch holes in the impenetrable display.
Wounding glimmers of hope.
They are not who I am watching for.
They are not who I am waiting for.

What am I looking for?

What am I waiting for?

Yet I am waiting,
Darkness attempts to steal my hope,
Sand will not forfeit its warmth to the night.
Bury it deep.

I am reaching to take your hand,
But my arms are bound to my side by time.
But for how long?
Before time is something to be desired, not dreaded
Before the memories.
Before the well-worn photographs.

Nick got me this incredible vintage camera for my birthday this year. His birthday is a week before mine and I only made him a card! How lame is that? He goes out and spends a whole day looking for something really great. He finds this camera and a poetry book and then makes me a card. Sheesh! I was so surprised. It was definitely one of the best gifts I have ever gotten. The camera is a kodak dating between 1914 and 1934. The lense folds out and you have to look down into the viewfinder.

The book was "Balauston, Aristophanes, and Other Poems" by Robert Browning. It was published in 1886!

Okay! I'm going to try this!

I have been following the blogs of a couple girls over the past few months and I thought all this writing sounded like fun. I have never kept a journal for more than a week, but maybe a couple readers will give me a bit of accountability...

I love all things vintage. I go to antique fairs, shops, and thrift stores and stuff my closet with all the things I love, but rarely things that I need! I figured I would catalog all these finds for those of you who are into that stuff as much as I am.

I'm also an amateur photographer... emphasis on AMATEUR!! I barely even know what aperture means.  But most of the pictures you see on my blog are my own. I thought this would be a good way to keep track of those too.

Well.... here we go.

Today I went to work (dental office) and worked and got off work. Then I went to the bank.... *snore* Bored yet?? Haha then I got home to find that my new camera had come in the mail!! AHHH I won't bore you with the details, but its a really great camera for taking decent pictures. I got a couple really nice lenses as well. I instantly jumped in the car and drove down to the beach to try it out. I've never had a nice camera like this before. I got a couple good shots and found that I loved them so much I didn't have the heart to edit them! I drove up to my favorite "secret" spot in PV and got some neat shots of the sunset. Enjoy!!

And would you believe its totally unedited?? I love this camera!!! My friend Nick is a professional photographer and told me that so many professionals cheat with photoshop. Excuse my hipster backlash but where the heck is the legitimacy of being a "professional photographer" if you have to completely edit and recreate your pictures on the computer?? Don't get me wrong; I love photoshop. But don't make someone pay $2000 to photograph a wedding just so you can take some moderately good shots and vamp them up on the computer! The bride's aunt can do it for free!! This rant ends here.

Sunsets are my favorite thing in the whole world...........

along with 50 other things.... :)